... dont even know where to start, thos memorize bring back so much pain, how i ever could forget them is still beyond me... i want to escape.. just be free of them but their is no way... how can you ppl free yourselfs so easily, am i doomed to deal with this, do i not get an escape? WHAT THE HELL DO I GAIN FOR ALL THIS PAIN. I ask for a simplistic future, just an average salary, average g/f or wife devoted to me in an average appartment. i cant even get near this, is it cause of age? thats bullshit their are ppl 14yrs old who have found their "one" alrdy, its soo annoying.... please let me escape god... i dont want to deal with this anymore.